Twilight Blues: Colorful?

Weeks into the Twilight hype, I watched its film with much persuasion from my cousin. She practically bribed me with dinner and free movie, and a night over, to watch the movie with her. For some reason, she's counting how many times she could watch the film with the same tingling feeling.

This tingling feeling I didn't get to feel.

Hear me out. I never read the book before the film, and I never felt the necessity or the curiosity to even borrow a copy. People have been asking that I read it, and watch it, and feel like a school girl. Erm, I never really had that feeling, being a school girl with giggles and blushes and boyfriends and BADUY love lines. That says it all.

But neither the film nor the books (I've read them after having seen the film), made me look back into my high school years and feel like the ultimate school girl.

The ups and downs.

Down: The story was too common and too cheesy. TOO CHEESY!!!!! ew

Up: I love the score. The musical score and OST were perfect for the scenes. Love "Bella's Lullaby". I applaud Carter Burwell for composing the score.

Up: James and Carlisle are more beautiful. Sorry Edward fans. PLUS! They are closer to my age, hay....wahahaha...maybe that's why....

Down: The book portrayed Bella to be quite a walking emotionally overdosed teen. But the actress was a little too bland in comparison.

Down: Bella's friends were too typical...too weird...too common...where the hell is the essense! (ehem ehem...calm down)

Down: The film took out a lot of scenes from the book that would have given Edward and Bella more essense into their relationship. That's why it was kinda disappointing that the film went that way....

Down: The line "I'm sorry...I shouldn't have brought you here" broke the serious moment

Down: The line "Take care of my heart...you have it.." Pure BS!!!!! MS!!!!!!!!

Up: Alice is cute. That much I could give credit for. I love how she speaks.

Up: Charlie's actor was perfect for the role.

Down: Where did all the conversations go? Lot's of loopholes.

Down: Sharkboy was kinda distracting (thanks, ate, for pointing that out, it kinda ruined my indifference to the characters). Jacob would have been beautiful as well if you just forget for a moment that he was sharkboy.

Down: Speaking of which, ate made a lot of points and trivias. She was my footnotes while i watched the film.

Up: Love the vampire snarling...although ate called it hissing...

Up: Clean graphics. Uber love the graphics.

Down: Except when Edward was running while carrying Bella. C'mon, it looked like he was running on a treadmill and the background was a rolling backdrop--with an industrial fan in front of them.

Down: the tree climbing would have been cute, if Edward looked like he was really touching the tree instead of caressing it.

Up: Love the tree scene though. That was when Burwell's "Bella's Lullaby" played. adik. (what can i say, piano instrumentals are my weakness)

Down: the author was there (thanks, ate, for pointing that out) grr

Down: Bella should have been the cook in Charlie's home, as said in the book. It would have shown a more in-depth relationship between them. While I was watching the film, I was kinda surprised that she cared so much about him. I didnt see the bond she has with her dad.

Down: Emmette looked like a body builder on steriods

Down: Jasper had a shifty portrayal in his character. The changes were too dynamic to be real (compare: meeting with the family, baseball game, and burning of James)--really different

Down: Rosalie should have been prettier--as promised by the book--like super model, not bitchy

Down: I judge a book by its cover. the book cover AND TITLE told me that it's mysterious. It's thick and is worth reading. Right! What???

Down: Edward should have perfect teeth in the film. It was his ultimate weapon (the smile that weakened Bella, and the bite! haller!)

Up: But I have a weakness for gorgeous eyes. I would not have looked too long at his teeth! (wahahaha) But when I see James or Carlisle, why should I look at Edward? (un un eh!)

Down: Edward should have been the most beautiful Cullen there, as expressed by the book. Right....

These are just some of my thoughts...I have raved about it since I've seen the film. Note that I'm not the biggest fan, and these are just MY OBSERVATIONS. Don't get angry with me. It's just my opinion from what I have read and seen. I've read lots of romance novels as well, so it is not the first time that I went through a love story. Twilight is just not one of those that made me fall in love with the story, characters...

I'm not a fan, but I appreciate the effort. Not my kind of reading material either. but i read it anyway just to find the big deal. 

What brought the hype? Well, let's just say hypes don't really get to me either.

So Twilight might have been the biggest hit movie of the year, but it would not have been the first to have failed to hit me.

Fine Line

Being a Woman of color, over weight, with curly hair, wearing glasses, barely-there social life, and often eccentric thinking, I have been looked at with those scrutinizing pair of eyes far too much that I recognize it before the offender does. Yeah, we tend to offend others without even realizing it. But I have been in the receiving end far too long.

Gender wise, I am a straight woman. But because of how I think and how I carry myself, I have been mistaken for a lesbian. The male rendition of a lesbian, more specifically. So I tried to change my image. I changed how I dress and speak, but my line of thinking remains the same. With that, I was asked if I was a bisexual, twice from different circles of acquaintances.

I was quick to deny it.

Without thinking that I might have offended those who are lesbians and bisexual, my quick denial was simply due to my resent on how we can't help but judge each other by what we see. We put labels on them and therefore create a stereotype.

With that stereotype falls everything else. In my old office, I have been labeled by my supervisor as "INEXPERIENCED", which lead him to believe that if I have not experienced IT, then I would not be able to understand certain issues that I am very much involved in. My experiences with anything sexual in nature is my only teacher. That is his belief of me. But he has no proof, and he has no idea. He just constantly told me of how I would fail to understand because of my suspected inexperience.

One time, I was in the grocery store and a sales person was offering me baby diapers. Because of how I looked, chubby with my tshirt and shorts, I have been mistaken for a mother with lots of kids.

Do I look like I'm gay? Should I be treated differently because of how I looked? Do I have a third eye blinking on my forehead that allows me to stand out from everyone else?

We are always so judgmental that the fine line between respect and business is blurred.